~Happy Birthday My Precious Little Girl~

Words can't describe the longing in my heart, to have you home on your special day, your very special and ONLY 4th birthday. I promise you I have great plans for your 5th birthday.

I hung an ornament yesterday in your honor. I know you aren't here with us in person, but you have no idea how deep you are in my heart. I said yes to you on July 18th. I wasn't kidding. I wish they would see the seriousness in my longing to hold you in my arms.

I don't have the words to tell you how sorry I am I have not come sooner, or why am I coming when it's almost too late? All I know is Jesus doesn't push us, he wants us to choose and I took a long time. I knew he was pushing me and I was wrong. He was pushing me so hard to come for you and Mia. I wasn't listening. I was actually running the wrong way, in fact, I am sure Satan was pulling the other way. But then one day the Good Lord gave me the extra SHOVE I needed. I thank him every single day. I pray I will never ignore a nudge, push or shove again.

Here is my prayer for you today: "Dear Jesus, I ask that your arms would be wrapped tightly around the one you picked for me and please guard her in Korea untill I make my way, and then in my arms forever she’ll stay.”

I will forever be asking my girls to forgive me that I didn't come for their perfectness any sooner. I am so thankful for the love and care that they are recieving in South Korea. Thank you Lord.